Im not a victim
Im not quiet
Im not shy
Im not weak
I can’t handle it
I make mistakes
I should have known
I was told what would happen
I should leave it alone… i am being dramatic.
I am a MAN
I am a SINNER
I am a LOVER
I need to heal.
He hasn’t stopped, but stopped me.
I froze.
I am frozen.
This is my lions den.
I have been stuck there on that couch for 5 years.
I tried to forget.
I tried to maintain the person he was to me, to keep him near.
But i was angry.
I showed him.
I stole, I lied, I broke, I changed.
I got what was mine, since he got what was….
It wasn’t his. He stole, He lied, He broke, He….
He didn’t break, because he was already broken.
I was supposed to fill the cracks but i just fell right through them.
I didn’t break, i was already broken.
He filled the cracks, just to shatter the notion
That I had a man
Who loved me.
he respected me.
he supported my plan.
I had a MAN.
But What i needed was a SAVIOR.
A supernatural healer.
I found a redeemer.
What’s the use of a faker?
I am whole.
I am chosen.
I am saved.
I am sanctified.
I am not what i have done.
I am not what he did.
I…. am a child of the SON.
